I don’t even think I wanna wake up tomorrow.

I had to kill the fan. Its been fucking up my sinuses.

Rip hospital fan

Diaper?

The line between art and fetish I think isn’t real.

Why else would so much art just be naked people?

I’m actually in tears. Its been such a bad day home.

Thank you.

I recommend

“SPQR” by Mary Beard for a good comprehensive book on Roman history

If you prefer chronology for some reason

“The origin of empire” by David Potter is really good

Also “Inventing the Renaissance” By Ada Palmer

I went to college for this shit and these books, while very long, do basically smarize everything I learned on these two subjects. So I’ve saved you probably $10,000

You would love reading any Roman History book and then “Inventing the Renaissance” by Ada palmer.

You’re right. It really does feel like were in the death throws of the republic of rome and the Empire is forming.

Which, naturally, will fall eventually and will likely turn into a nationalist nostalgia and inspire a Renaissance.

You should also be aware that most modern authors have 1 boon and 1 bane. Their boon is significantly more evidence than any other surviving roman historian ever. Their bane is that they will have Tue biases of our modern issues.

Its my favorite thing how much historical interpretation gets done through the eyes of a contemporary. Historians love to go on and on about not having bias, but their human so they do. A good example of this is Edward Gibbons “Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire” which revitalization our modern tradition of Roman History studies. Unfortunately (or fortunately if you’re like me and wanted to study intellectual history) this whole series is often used as a criticism of the British Empire in the 17th century.

Of course a lot of it is good enough roman history, but whole stories within the book are complete fabrications. There is no evidence that they happened to Emperor X or Province Y, but the series of events and the alleged public disapprovals of them do match up with the events of his contemporary political moment for which it would have been illegal for Mr. Gibbon to criticize publicly.

And this means of using nostalgia around a long dead empire to affect contemporary politics is what happened in the Renaissance.

Ada Palmers book she effectively (and very accessibly) argues that the Renaissance was more or less just a massive propaganda campaign since by no measure was the “Renaissance” better or worse than the middle ages. In fact the span of the “renaissance” is so grand that it often includes the middle ages or it doesn’t depending on where you want to believe the renaissance started which is constantly redefined.

Anytime someone has genuinely said a kind thing to me has been such a massive boost.

That’s really it.

Then the media cycle that would have been about the columbine shooters is about the mad stranger who killed two innocent high schoolers and vanished.

Anyone else notice how brown the snow was after home landed.

Never seen someone shit themselves so hard.

I want them to 1 for 1 recreate the scene. No changes.

I actually just want them to make proton drive work on Linux. That’s all I need.

You just write.

Write garbage.

Write a fan fiction

Read a shitt book and re-write the shitty plot.

Its a momentum thing for me. I’ll write absolute ass and then re-write it until its what I want.

I often ask an LLM to write the thing I want, get so fucking mad that they wrote AI Slop and then write good shit. That’s a good trick IMO.

All proper names are just old/dead/foreign language for the thing.

Gods, I’m considering Job hopping and I saw Lockheed was hiring for my role, less experience, less certs, full remote, and quadruple my pay.

I had to block them on indeed and LinkedIn. I hated that I was considering it.

One of the guys I went to college with is an amazing programmer and had such a great understanding of C that hes why i got as far into CS as i did, couldn’t get a job after grad because 1) Covid and more importantly 2) he’s insufferable.

He got a job making $100k a year for I wanna say Lockheed because he quote “Wrote good looking code”. That’s all they needed because Tue DoD already told them that the project he was hired for was not going to be adopted, but they were still contracted for minimum 2 more years of development and Lockheed would be in breach of contract if they weren’t making progress even though it was already Dead.

The Military industrial complex is JUST a grift to put tax dollars in private hands.

I don’t have pride in my government or its actions.

It was actively causing a lot of harm for most of its existence and is now turbo charging its ability to enshittify the world.

The LEAST I can do is make it clear we’re not all in support of this shit.

Love the country and people though. Lots of cool forests to roam and lots of people who don’t suck.

That’s cool.

Proton drive Linux support when?

Now I need Tue rest of the pic

What am I looking at?