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Try to frame it like it’s exciting, not a failure. It’s fun that you have so many more books you want to read!

First of all, I think most people think about those things at least occasionally, it’s totally normal and part of the curious nature of humans and many other mammals.

You mention “I can’t ever just stop thinking and relax. My brain is so fucked.” which indicates that this is a real problem affecting your mental health. I think you could benefit from going to therapy specifically about anxiety, or at least start with implementing some of the basic principles.

Worrying about things you can’t control, or can’t influence, while completely normal, can be quite destructive. Try to reframe these in your head. Don’t be anxious because you might never know the answer, let yourself be freed by the fact that you don’t have to do anything about it. All those things you mentioned are really awe inspiring. Things to wonder and imagine. That could be a positive thing in your life, part of the great mysteries of humanity, not something to be upset about.

Focus on the things in your life that you can control. You can study, practice music, write stories, etc. So many many things you can control, so don’t be upset about what you can’t. Be happy with what you can.

Maybe you could directly transform your anxiety into creativity here. If you’re so consumed by these things, write a short sci-fi story about if the world was a simulation, etc. There’s a reason why people with anxiety or ADHD tend to be creative. Just an idea.

I thought I was far superior to people because I liked Pink Floyd and their music is actually meaningful and intellectual… yikes. I still like Pink Floyd though

Honestly, I hard disagree. Texting is so inefficient. If I want to have a conversation with someone, I just call them. It’s so much easier to just get everything sorted all out at once instead of trying to send messages back and forth and you get distracted and forget to reply. Meh. You can so easily turn a conversation that takes hours, sometimes days into a 2 minute phone call

Am I missing something, why would you get less of any of those in a city? You would definitely go on more walks in a city, and I don’t see how water or sleep would change.

Sometimes I just wanna wear an outfit that makes people laugh and smile…

I mean, most vegans would still commend your effort to reduce animal product consumption.

But from a moral standpoint, simply eating less animal products really doesn’t have much value. Imagine using your argument for other moral dilemmas.

“Racism is wrong, so I reduced the amount of racial slurs I use to only 1/3”
“Rape is wrong, so I only rape on Mondays now” (in reference to meatless Mondays)

I hate to be so militant about it, but you either think animal abuse is acceptable or you don’t.

Now, what I do think could be a moral standpoint, if you really want to still be able to eat meat, is to only eat “humane” meat. I put “humane” in quotes because even farmers with the best intentions are still killing animals young. I don’t personally believe any animal product can be humane, but even then I can recognize that any animal that was raised on a pasture and ate real food is more ethical to eat than one in a factory.

So if you genuinely only ate pasture raised beef and chicken (and you were sure about it), then I would say that is quite honorable.